Monday, April 20, 2009

UGGH!! Can you take out TDY?

As in kill it? Can you take it out back and shoot it? I used to think spouses who's husbands came and went all the time had it easier than spouses who's husband is gone for an extended period. BOY WAS I WRONG! My dear husband came home from work today, inhaled food as I gave him the run down on the day. He then had to help the cub scouts build their tool boxes. After they all left he said "Okay can I tell you about my day?" Without hesitation I said when do you leave? His response "Saturday or Sunday for about a week. I'll come home for a few days and then leave again for 10 days."
I immediately said "I HATE YOUR JOB. I AM TIRED OF TDY. I WOULD RATHER YOU WERE GONE FOR 12 MONTHS AT A TIME SO I KNEW WHEN YOU'D BE HERE AND WHEN YOU WEREN'T." I then had to apologize. I knew he didn't want to tell me he was leaving. I knew that he couldn't get out of it. But come on. This is ridiculous already. I have had him home for 2 weeks before he leaves again. It's no wonder the trash men take pity on me. I can't remember when my dear husband will be here or gone, how the heck am I going to remember how to put out the trash?

Two weeks with him is better than without. But I feel like I can never let my guard down. I can't be vulnerable with him because he might leave me tomorrow and then it will hurt so much more when he does leave. But if I don't let my guard down it isn't good for either of us.

I haven't even told the kids yet. I'm not sure I can handle one more discussion about dad going on a trip. I'm tired of adventure in this life. I just want plain old dull and boring. Can I have a little plain old dull and boring? Lord could you please send some my way?

1 comment:

  1. This post breaks my heart. I can totally relate! We are headed into a season of frequent TDYs here too. They stink. Period. {{{hugs}}}